| 8 Year Patchy Longer then necessary ramble From CouragetoChange on 7/4/2010 10:28:00 PM | |
| I give thanks to my God, Moonchaser, and all of the Quitnet for this quit, that I know would have been impossible without all three. But of course because Quitnet makes it possible to connect with quitbuds, most of the the human credit goes to Moonchaser, who helped me and actually listened to me when all that stuff was coming out of my keyboard and onto quitnets otherwise lovely pages. I can relate so well to people who come in and say I am so pissed off! LOL I was! It was tough then, I was getting ready to jump ship and try some other way which would not have worked cuz God wanted me here, and I had all these people writing and asking what was wrong and I was happy to tell them what was wrong, most didn't write back lol. I am truly sorry for those replies and I appreciated then and still do the concern and kindness, but I was not ready to receive it. But it was about that time when Moon got the same idea and she wrote. Arrgggg!!!!!!! How many times do I have to tell people to go away, you'd think the word would spread, so she had some nerve! But we had a journey to take, and at some point we found we had two days between us, only Moon was not committed to her quit, and that made me made because she came to save my ass just so she could bail? I don't think so. She gave me something to focus on besides my own petty stuff, and somehow we became a team and we did this together day by day. I can't stress enough to the new people, find a friend to hang on to cuz you're gonna need them, when no one else understands or wants to try and understand, your friend who knows exactly where you are, will, cuz she knows, shes right with you. When I was at the family reunion things got pretty slippery, internet was bad and I was scared so I finally got on and sent out some sos, Moon got me right back and you know it didn't matter what she said, just that this woman knows me and she supports me even today she's the first to answer the call for help. I was so glad to get home though. I love people who come in here wagging their finger saying, "You must have a Quit date" or "You must have a plan!" And I say to those statements loud and proud, "Bull****!" You quit how you quit, and if you're quit today then you're a success. I quit without a planned quit, I quit without throwing my cigs away and doing a dumpster dance. I'm an addict, and that makes me a person who can tell fibs to myself, every quitdate I ever made I sabotaged, every pack I did the dumpster dance with I just replaced. I was hopeless with quitdates. I stopped pretty much on the spot after I smoked all my cigs and half my neighbors. I stayed on the patch ten days and quit that, went through the rest of the withdrawals, but those ten days gave me time to accept that I wasn't smoking. You know if you can keep a quitdate, that's great, to those of you who can not, don't. Quitdates are only important after the fact when you start celebrating every minute your quit, then you have a point of reference. I am living proof that you don't need either a quit date or a plan, but you must quit, there are just way to many reasons to not smoke, its killing you and people around you one puff at a time. But you know that cuz you're here. So the story doesn't change, no quitdate, no plan, no dumpster dance, just quit, came to quitnet, got mad, met Moon and we did it together, that's my story and eight years later its still the truth. The change? Its far easier then it used to be, I can't even describe the freedom, you just have to experience it. Back to engaging in my materialistic addictions, I love the first step in the CR program which basically says we're powerless over everything, I was never materialistic until I quit smoking lol. But I'm getting a computer, well in parts and then its going to get put together downtown cuz there's no way its gonna happen here, too dusty and static, but its exciting. Those newbies out there, I promise you there is no better place to quit smoking then the Quitnet, no better time to quit then right now, this minute, no better way to quit then the way that works for you, and its all possible with a little help from some friends who are doing the same. Its not easy for a while but worth every second, and its these hard times that are gonna make you think twice before deciding to try again when life gets easier and it will. Thank Q :) God bless you guys, Love Ya! ((((((((((((((((((Moon))))))))))))))))) ((((((((((((Jeri))))))))))) and everyone else too. Sorry for the patchy ramble lol, I'm still shopping mentally. :) hugs, Carla | |
Monday, July 5, 2010
8 Year Patchy Longer then necessary ramble
Monday, April 26, 2010
OA forum .journal entry
There is strife in OA forum, and for once I am beginning to see the logic Quitnet used years ago when things blew up.
1.) this is a site for quitting smoking. There are other places for other things.
2.)We at OA are NO different then anyone else quitting smoking! We are not UNIQUE! AA would call this attitude terminal uniqueness, and it is suggested we don't entertain it. Like it or not, we are part of the overall community of quitters here at Quitnet.
3I.) believe we should be allowed anniversaries, at least the list in one post. But we don't need 5 or six posts that aren't even quit related, all of that stuff could be put in one post, and let people read it.
3.) the people who are causing the problems to begin with are still there, and need to be either removed, or dealt with by admin.
It is my belief that anyone can quit, but if they don't want to they won't. I don't believe in supporting the slipper, and anyone with any kind of program would know this is enabling. And its bad for the person still smoking. It should be stopped,.
1.) this is a site for quitting smoking. There are other places for other things.
2.)We at OA are NO different then anyone else quitting smoking! We are not UNIQUE! AA would call this attitude terminal uniqueness, and it is suggested we don't entertain it. Like it or not, we are part of the overall community of quitters here at Quitnet.
3I.) believe we should be allowed anniversaries, at least the list in one post. But we don't need 5 or six posts that aren't even quit related, all of that stuff could be put in one post, and let people read it.
3.) the people who are causing the problems to begin with are still there, and need to be either removed, or dealt with by admin.
It is my belief that anyone can quit, but if they don't want to they won't. I don't believe in supporting the slipper, and anyone with any kind of program would know this is enabling. And its bad for the person still smoking. It should be stopped,.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Here comes the sun! Yeah 2800 days :)
Here comes the sun! Yeah 2800 days :)
From CouragetoChange on 3/4/2010 5:21:52 PM
I had no idea that 2800 days was equal to 92 months lol. Ok so remember that beer song we use to sing when messed up, well some of us lol, I reworded it, and its kind of silly, but it goes something like this,
91 months of quit on the wall, 91 months of quit
you take it down and pass it around
92 months of quit on the wall..........lol ok thats silly.
I have no ramble, have not been here so much lately, been camped at facebook though not always there either, sometimes at youtube, sometimes not in the house. Spring is cominng and the sun is out and almost warm, we got daylight again, and for a little while we'll have both daylight and nighttime, then it will swing into full daylight, and no body dare complain in case we get tossed into darkness early!
I'm quit and sober, and I can't think of a better way to go through the day. It was really hard for a long time, then it wasn't anymore, I am still grateful! Don't ever want to go through that again, and maybe more important, its one less thing between me and God, and that makes it easier to talk to God, and hear some of what he says to me, which is cool.
I love my quit! Hang in if you're still having a hard time, I can not explain the freedom, what it feels like, its just totally... its a little like when you realized you didn't have to drink again and the the steps were working in your life instead of having to sweat through them like the beginning. After a while, your quit will work for you and you get to enjoy lots of great days.
I was in a church the other night and the pastor said the c word, I almost cracked up.
Ok back to my little song...
91 months of quit on the wall, 91 months of quit
you take one down and pass it around
92 months of quit on the wall............... Ok I'm done.
God bless you, ktq! Have a great day.
Hugs
Carla
From CouragetoChange on 3/4/2010 5:21:52 PM
I had no idea that 2800 days was equal to 92 months lol. Ok so remember that beer song we use to sing when messed up, well some of us lol, I reworded it, and its kind of silly, but it goes something like this,
91 months of quit on the wall, 91 months of quit
you take it down and pass it around
92 months of quit on the wall..........lol ok thats silly.
I have no ramble, have not been here so much lately, been camped at facebook though not always there either, sometimes at youtube, sometimes not in the house. Spring is cominng and the sun is out and almost warm, we got daylight again, and for a little while we'll have both daylight and nighttime, then it will swing into full daylight, and no body dare complain in case we get tossed into darkness early!
I'm quit and sober, and I can't think of a better way to go through the day. It was really hard for a long time, then it wasn't anymore, I am still grateful! Don't ever want to go through that again, and maybe more important, its one less thing between me and God, and that makes it easier to talk to God, and hear some of what he says to me, which is cool.
I love my quit! Hang in if you're still having a hard time, I can not explain the freedom, what it feels like, its just totally... its a little like when you realized you didn't have to drink again and the the steps were working in your life instead of having to sweat through them like the beginning. After a while, your quit will work for you and you get to enjoy lots of great days.
I was in a church the other night and the pastor said the c word, I almost cracked up.
Ok back to my little song...
91 months of quit on the wall, 91 months of quit
you take one down and pass it around
92 months of quit on the wall............... Ok I'm done.
God bless you, ktq! Have a great day.
Hugs
Carla
Monday, January 4, 2010
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You know, I don't think much of New Years resolutions, cuz for me it was always just a day then back to the same old stuff, so I don't put much faith in it. What I do have a lot of hope and faith in, of course first my God...but also a true commitment to a quit, which is what a person needs to make it. Its not easy, and for me and my buddy, it took months. Those silent qmails we get, I could hear and feel the pain she felt and I know she could hear and feel mine. There's no getting around it, something that has to be experienced and it is for the good all though it doesn't feel like it. A lot of people are starting out, a lot won't stick with it. Some of you want it bad enough that you're willing to do whatever it takes, that's the people who will succeed. At some point the quit becomes more valuable then the addiction, when there comes a mental, emotional, and spiritual change in a person that turns the course they're on. Me and Moon reached that point together, and I know I could not have made it without her.
I swear by quit buds, but there's a catch to it, both have to be willing to do their part to help the other succeed, in the process both succeed.... See More
Today I am a non smoker, while I understand that I can never have just one, the act of smoking is in my past, and today I live in the spirit of recovered. No I don't assume I am recovered, because part or recovery is the continuation of growth, but the spirit of being recovered, I'm in God's hands, and I am safe, protected, and if I let go I won't fall. And I am truly grateful for all that I've experienced during my quit, each day forward was a day towards no pain, and though during, I wasn't sure I wanted to believe it, I wanted it. And I can promise anyone who's not so sure, it does pass, you do reach another day closer until one day you realize you aren't thinking about smoking, or quitting, you're just living your life, quit.
If we really want to be smoke free we can be. I just want to encourage those just starting out to stick close, stay strong, and yup, in your weakest moments you might be surprised how strong you are, hold fast to your HP and your buds.
Special hugs to Moon and Frank, who both picked me up a few times and kicked my butt more then once, as well as all of you who have each been a part of this 90 months at some point. I'm going forward a day at a time, hope you guys will too, I know you can.
2740 days turn 90 months at 7pm :)