Monday, January 4, 2010

90 Months

I have not been at Quitnet much lately, Quitnet is also at the facebook, and I seem to be there a lot and checking into the Q there, which is no excuse for not being here.

You know, I don't think much of New Years resolutions, cuz for me it was always just a day then back to the same old stuff, so I don't put much faith in it. What I do have a lot of hope and faith in, of course first my God...but also a true commitment to a quit, which is what a person needs to make it. Its not easy, and for me and my buddy, it took months. Those silent qmails we get, I could hear and feel the pain she felt and I know she could hear and feel mine. There's no getting around it, something that has to be experienced and it is for the good all though it doesn't feel like it. A lot of people are starting out, a lot won't stick with it. Some of you want it bad enough that you're willing to do whatever it takes, that's the people who will succeed. At some point the quit becomes more valuable then the addiction, when there comes a mental, emotional, and spiritual change in a person that turns the course they're on. Me and Moon reached that point together, and I know I could not have made it without her.

I swear by quit buds, but there's a catch to it, both have to be willing to do their part to help the other succeed, in the process both succeed.... See More

Today I am a non smoker, while I understand that I can never have just one, the act of smoking is in my past, and today I live in the spirit of recovered. No I don't assume I am recovered, because part or recovery is the continuation of growth, but the spirit of being recovered, I'm in God's hands, and I am safe, protected, and if I let go I won't fall. And I am truly grateful for all that I've experienced during my quit, each day forward was a day towards no pain, and though during, I wasn't sure I wanted to believe it, I wanted it. And I can promise anyone who's not so sure, it does pass, you do reach another day closer until one day you realize you aren't thinking about smoking, or quitting, you're just living your life, quit.

If we really want to be smoke free we can be. I just want to encourage those just starting out to stick close, stay strong, and yup, in your weakest moments you might be surprised how strong you are, hold fast to your HP and your buds.

Special hugs to Moon and Frank, who both picked me up a few times and kicked my butt more then once, as well as all of you who have each been a part of this 90 months at some point. I'm going forward a day at a time, hope you guys will too, I know you can.


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